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Okay, New Year's Resolution thing - yes, yes. Eat better. More exercise. What else is new?
I think an *actual* resolution for me this year will be to make myself write more. That may not mean more fics published since much of what I write is quite lame and never makes it out into the world. Like this 21-page *completed* fic that I've never put out there because the characterizations were so jaw-droppingly off it was embarrassing. (But it's complete! *whines* *smacks self for whining* Yes, I'm quite psychotic when it comes to writing.)
Another resolution is to be a bit less self-critical when it comes to writing - at least in the pre-beta round. Part of my problem these days is that I've been exposed to lots and lots of fic over the years and exposed to people who are very critical of said fic, which in turn has made me look at fic more critically. Back when I first started writing, it was more carefree because I just didn't bother with characterization or plot or quality. Hell, my first stories weren't even betaed. But that's changed now - and it's good in some ways (I've learned I would rather have a beta be downright brutal with what I write because I tend to be a very lazy writer - and the final result is always so much better when I'm pushed) and bad in others (gone are the days of quickly typing something up without any second-guesses.)
But I think I've gotten to the point of being overly-critical with my own writing, to the point that I never write anything down anymore because I've criticized it away before it even gets out of my head. I need to stop that. After all, it's just fic. In the end, it's just about telling a story I want to tell. I have to let go of the thought that whatever I write has to be the Next Great Thing and just write. I was never that Very Important Writer anyway - I'm fluffy and fun. And that's not likely to change anytime soon.
So.
I've put my works in progress on LJ so I can look at them anytime I want to. I will try and write down brainstorms without feeling like I have to compose in final draft form. I will try and let a beta see something at least once a month, even if it goes no further than the beta.
But huzzah! I suddenly have 4 fics in the works! 1) I found a year-old scrap of fic on the hard drive, part of which looked interesting, which I'm turning into something else. 2) Another on the hard drive that I had forgotten about - what I had down cracked me up. 3) Yet another old one that I have a punch line for but no fic (which is easier to work with than #2 which, as of yet, has no ending.) 4) And finally 8 pages of a 5 a.m. Midol-induced haze (sadly, this one will probably end up cliché, but tough shit - of course, I act tough now but will completely roll over when Karen kicks and/or licks me - I love my kinky betas.)
So yes. Blah blah blah. Yap yap yap. I've made this public and I can't go back.
I think an *actual* resolution for me this year will be to make myself write more. That may not mean more fics published since much of what I write is quite lame and never makes it out into the world. Like this 21-page *completed* fic that I've never put out there because the characterizations were so jaw-droppingly off it was embarrassing. (But it's complete! *whines* *smacks self for whining* Yes, I'm quite psychotic when it comes to writing.)
Another resolution is to be a bit less self-critical when it comes to writing - at least in the pre-beta round. Part of my problem these days is that I've been exposed to lots and lots of fic over the years and exposed to people who are very critical of said fic, which in turn has made me look at fic more critically. Back when I first started writing, it was more carefree because I just didn't bother with characterization or plot or quality. Hell, my first stories weren't even betaed. But that's changed now - and it's good in some ways (I've learned I would rather have a beta be downright brutal with what I write because I tend to be a very lazy writer - and the final result is always so much better when I'm pushed) and bad in others (gone are the days of quickly typing something up without any second-guesses.)
But I think I've gotten to the point of being overly-critical with my own writing, to the point that I never write anything down anymore because I've criticized it away before it even gets out of my head. I need to stop that. After all, it's just fic. In the end, it's just about telling a story I want to tell. I have to let go of the thought that whatever I write has to be the Next Great Thing and just write. I was never that Very Important Writer anyway - I'm fluffy and fun. And that's not likely to change anytime soon.
So.
I've put my works in progress on LJ so I can look at them anytime I want to. I will try and write down brainstorms without feeling like I have to compose in final draft form. I will try and let a beta see something at least once a month, even if it goes no further than the beta.
But huzzah! I suddenly have 4 fics in the works! 1) I found a year-old scrap of fic on the hard drive, part of which looked interesting, which I'm turning into something else. 2) Another on the hard drive that I had forgotten about - what I had down cracked me up. 3) Yet another old one that I have a punch line for but no fic (which is easier to work with than #2 which, as of yet, has no ending.) 4) And finally 8 pages of a 5 a.m. Midol-induced haze (sadly, this one will probably end up cliché, but tough shit - of course, I act tough now but will completely roll over when Karen kicks and/or licks me - I love my kinky betas.)
So yes. Blah blah blah. Yap yap yap. I've made this public and I can't go back.