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It has to all go away.
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nandamai is like having free therapy. I must remove all unfinished stories from my computer. This is very stressful as I currently have 16,178 words written in unfinished fics. Yes, I counted. That's how traumatic it is. They must go away for they have subconsciously sucked away my writing self-confidence.
Of course, I also came to the realization that what I really want to do is Executive Produce fics instead of actually write them...
Okay. So here is my writing exercise that I am required to do. Freewrite a character...
So.
You really expect me to open up? Bare my soul? Well, you can forget it. Not gonna happen.
Hellooo?
Gonna say anything? Or just sit there with that ever-so-lovely blank expression?
Okay, this officially bites.
I don't care if I was ordered here. You're gonna need a lot more than a stare to get me to talk.
Still not gonna say anything, huh?
Can I go yet?
You realize we're just wasting time here. I could be doing so many other things. Important things. Working on my backswing for one. But no. I'm here to "talk."
Well, screw that.
I'm the last one, aren't I?
You weaseled your way in here, getting the rest of my team to spill their guts...
Bet you got nothing out of Teal'c though. Good for him.
Carter probably...
She probably...
I don't want to talk about Carter.
Look, what happened, happened, okay? It was no one's fault. Just an accident. A stupid, dumb, senseless...
Did Daniel say something? He did, didn't he? I *bet* you couldn't get him to shut up about it. Probably analyzed everyone nicely. Put everyone in a neat little box wrapped up with a pretty pink bow.
Is something he said why I'm here?
Look. I can't watch everyone 24/7.
It. Was. An. Accident.
Shouldn't have been there in the first place. *Should* have known better.
I can't be everywhere at once.
I should be, but I can't.
It *wasn't* my fault.
It wasn't anyone's fault.
Jonas should have never come with us on that mission.
*
That was weird. Don't know where that came from. Okay, n. What's the next exercise?
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nandamai is like having free therapy. I must remove all unfinished stories from my computer. This is very stressful as I currently have 16,178 words written in unfinished fics. Yes, I counted. That's how traumatic it is. They must go away for they have subconsciously sucked away my writing self-confidence.Of course, I also came to the realization that what I really want to do is Executive Produce fics instead of actually write them...
Okay. So here is my writing exercise that I am required to do. Freewrite a character...
So.
You really expect me to open up? Bare my soul? Well, you can forget it. Not gonna happen.
Hellooo?
Gonna say anything? Or just sit there with that ever-so-lovely blank expression?
Okay, this officially bites.
I don't care if I was ordered here. You're gonna need a lot more than a stare to get me to talk.
Still not gonna say anything, huh?
Can I go yet?
You realize we're just wasting time here. I could be doing so many other things. Important things. Working on my backswing for one. But no. I'm here to "talk."
Well, screw that.
I'm the last one, aren't I?
You weaseled your way in here, getting the rest of my team to spill their guts...
Bet you got nothing out of Teal'c though. Good for him.
Carter probably...
She probably...
I don't want to talk about Carter.
Look, what happened, happened, okay? It was no one's fault. Just an accident. A stupid, dumb, senseless...
Did Daniel say something? He did, didn't he? I *bet* you couldn't get him to shut up about it. Probably analyzed everyone nicely. Put everyone in a neat little box wrapped up with a pretty pink bow.
Is something he said why I'm here?
Look. I can't watch everyone 24/7.
It. Was. An. Accident.
Shouldn't have been there in the first place. *Should* have known better.
I can't be everywhere at once.
I should be, but I can't.
It *wasn't* my fault.
It wasn't anyone's fault.
Jonas should have never come with us on that mission.
*
That was weird. Don't know where that came from. Okay, n. What's the next exercise?
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I have *no* idea why I killed off Jonas. None. It just ended up there. Really weird. Well, I guess writing excercises are just excercises. Hmm.
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Well, I guess writing excercises are just excercises. Hmm.
And they're fun! Well, to read, anyway. :)
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I obviously wasn't even thinking about WW when I wrote that, but after you said that, I could *totally* see it! :D
And they're fun! Well, to read, anyway. :)
Thanks! Even if I did kill Jonas. Or...channeled Jack killed Jonas. Which means that maybe subconsciously Jack wants to kill Jonas...at least the Jack in my mind...I'm not quite sure. I need more sessions with nanda...