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splash_the_cat's Freud doll told me I need to write out some stuff. If you loved or even liked DW's Doomsday, you probably shouldn't read this. In fact, I know you shouldn't. My intent isn't to piss anyone off and after all, my having an opinion in no way invalidates your own opinion (although, why is it that some people think that? should be part of Fandom/Internet 101.) But I am turning off the comments because I have *absolutely* no energy to argue/talk/comment. None.

To me the ending of Doomsday wasn't beautiful or lovely, it was a tragedy involving a 20-ton Mac truck. There was no bittersweet, only bitter. No "You were fantastic! And you know what? So was I!" Nothing to say that the last two years were wonderful, only tears and pain over something that seemed to be ending before its time. Hell, when even *the Doctor's* crying? God.

It started when Rose gets sucked away. Sure she jumped on the lever to save the world. But what got her in the end? She wasn't strong enough to hold on. She slipped. Slipped right into the arms of the biggest plot hole in the universe. That black hole had *nothing* on Pete's ability to magically appear at exactly the right second.

Then the goodbye. The goodbye which was designed to hurt in the biggest way they could think of.

Sledgehammer Swing #1. Not being able to touch. For the Doctor and Rose, hugging/hand holding has practically been their standard form of communication this past series. Rose even says it - "can I touch?" "No." No last hug goodbye? Cruel.

Sledgehammer Swing #2. They have so little time to talk and what do they focus on? What each other's lives will be like without each other. The Doctor talks about Rose having her family and a normal life, something he says he can never do. Brave, but very hollow words. 1) Rose already knows this. 2) The Doctor has seen Rose run away from the normal life (and her family, for that matter) time and again (hell, the Doctor's been doing nothing *but* pulling her away from that life from day one), all coming to a head with her "I'm never going to leave you." Yes, hollow, hollow words by the Doctor. Rose then talks about the Doctor going on and being alone. The Doctor's sad but resigned to this, but that thought is killing Rose. So much pain involved in them no longer being in each other's lives.

Sledgehammer Swing #3 Cutting out right before the Doctor said he loved Rose. This probably makes me the crankiest of all because it implies either two possible things. 1) It's simply a running joke (yes, a joke) that the Doctor cannot say that he loves anyone. If that's the case, it's beyond sick. What the hell kind of show is this? 2) The words that preceded it "if this is the last time I can say it..." may imply that it *won't* be the last time he can say it. And...I can't play that game. I just can't. Speculating about things that might but most likely will never happen? Can't do that again.

So Rose's journey ends and it wasn't life-affirming or even show-affirming. It was a painful knife in the gut for the two characters I had grown to love. How could I look back at episodes and enjoy, knowing that in the end it will only come to being steamrolled? Or for that matter, how can I look forward?