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It'll be a year this week that I first had my Vistibular Neuronitus attack. I still have it, although it's not like it was in the early days. The problem is that back when it first happened, it resulted in me having a full-on anxiety attack while driving, complete with trip to the ER.
So I've been thinking about it a lot, trying to tell myself that I've come a long way in a year. But apparently this starts me thinking (while driving home) about how I am a bit dizzy today, and am I breathing right? Maybe I'm getting rid of too much carbon dioxide. And what if I have another panic attack like...right now? I mean, I shouldn't and all, but what if I do? Seriously, am I breathing right? ACK, MY FINGER TINGLED. I DON'T THINK I'M BREATHING RIGHT. OMG. *HAS HEART PALPITATIONS* *DOWNS XANAX* *GETS HOME SHAKING AND STRUNG OUT*
So, yeah. I swear I cannot stand my brain these days. I'm fine now - just a little jittery and tired (tired part is the xanax kicking in.) But I hate how this has wrecked my life.
So I've been thinking about it a lot, trying to tell myself that I've come a long way in a year. But apparently this starts me thinking (while driving home) about how I am a bit dizzy today, and am I breathing right? Maybe I'm getting rid of too much carbon dioxide. And what if I have another panic attack like...right now? I mean, I shouldn't and all, but what if I do? Seriously, am I breathing right? ACK, MY FINGER TINGLED. I DON'T THINK I'M BREATHING RIGHT. OMG. *HAS HEART PALPITATIONS* *DOWNS XANAX* *GETS HOME SHAKING AND STRUNG OUT*
So, yeah. I swear I cannot stand my brain these days. I'm fine now - just a little jittery and tired (tired part is the xanax kicking in.) But I hate how this has wrecked my life.