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[mrv3000]

I had a post yesterday but deleted it. But, I don't know, I just feel the need to put it out into the internetty sphere again. Found out yesterday that my dad has cancer. It's very treatable - nearly 100% cure rate for the kind he has, but still. You know how it goes - it's upsetting.

I'm not sure if this will result in even MORE Doctor Who posts or what. :D I really do use LJ as this sort of escape from work and real life and so on. Work has been super stressful starting a few weeks back, and so I'm channeling that into post after post after post. I probably should take up yoga again or something. :D People use their journals for different things - to me this is a toy or a hobby - it's a place to put energies to fannish use, with a few RL things maybe throw in here or there. A few years back I posted about wondering if this made me look shallow, but then I realized I didn't really care much about what people thought about my journal. It's FUN for me when I post meta discussions or picspams or silliness, and just as much fun to yap on forever about metas and picspams and silliness.

Don't think I really have a point, other than to apologize in advance for potential massive spamming. And I'll try and keep it on the filters. :D

Oh, made myself an icon. Finally got around to watching DT's video diaries for S2. Although...I ended up fast-forwarding a bunch of it. Heh. Okay, a year later and you'd think I'd be able to watch behind-the-scenes stuff for Doomsday, wouldn't you? But when DT's getting a bit moody about it... And then as BP's filming her crying alone scene, DT's sitting in the car to keep warm, but looking very glum as he watches. WAH! And then they started hugging on each other after it was done. *cries some more*

Still amuses me that in that recent Confidential, some director (or producer) mentioned that his kids watched Doomsday and they weren't scared by the Daleks and Cybermen at all, but they were incredibly freaked out over the Doctor and Rose being separated. *PETS* And I guess DT's reaction was a bit of shock. Yes, DT. You and BP have managed to traumatize small children. And not so small children.

See? I'm *already* babbling about Doctor Who again!

Comments

[loriel-eris.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Sorry to hear about your dad. As you say, nearly 100% cure rate is all very well, but it doesn't negate how you feel or the fact that he's sick just now.

As for post spamming, it's your LJ. It's one of the few things that I've never felt the need to apologise for (or even wonder if I should be doing it) on LJ. :)

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Yeah. It's one of those logical vs. emotional things. I really think he'll be okay, but still.

I always feel a bit weird about spamming LJ though. Not sure why. Guess people can unfriend or filter me out if they want, but...I'm neurotic? :D

[poohmusings.livejournal.com]

Oh, Michelle. *BIG, SLOBBERY LIIIIIIIICK* You can always email me, you know that, right? And call. You can/should always call if you need someone to talk to. Um. Unless it's DW stuff. ;D

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

*huuuuuuuugs*

How about random DW-related text messages? "OMG D/R!!!!11!!!" ;)

[dettiot.livejournal.com]

I hope your LJ continues to be a place where you can let off steam, distract yourself from real life issues, and basically be somewhere that you can just be. I'm sorry to hear about your dad, and I'll have my fingers crossed for y'all.

Yes, DT. You and BP have managed to traumatize small children. And not so small children.

I loved that moment in the Confidential. It's probably a good thing that DT isn't fully aware of his powers over us . . . 'cause you know, temptation to use his powers for evil, not for good, and all that. And, [sniff] I love that he gets as upset about Doomsday as the rest of us.

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

I hope your LJ continues to be a place where you can let off steam, distract yourself from real life issues, and basically be somewhere that you can just be. I'm sorry to hear about your dad, and I'll have my fingers crossed for y'all.

Thanks. :) And yeah, I have the feeling my LJ continue to be that. I was considering buying a permanent LJ account today, but LJ's been so TWITCHY. :-\

I loved that moment in the Confidential. It's probably a good thing that DT isn't fully aware of his powers over us . . . 'cause you know, temptation to use his powers for evil, not for good, and all that. And, [sniff] I love that he gets as upset about Doomsday as the rest of us.

I never do Confidentials really, but I want to get it just to see that. "LOOK WHAT YOU DID!!" :D

[nandamai]

Oh, Michelle, I'm so sorry. I will be sending many healthy vibes to your dad. Is it okay if I ask where it is and what stage? Obviously I won't be offended if you don't answer. *smooch*

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :) I'll email ya.

[deltachild.livejournal.com]

So sorry to hear about your Dad, and hope that everything goes well for him.

LJ started out as a fun thing and you certainly bring loads of fun to the world through it, so I look forward to the manic Dr Who posting :D

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :)

And good to know it's not annoying everyone! :D

[ivydoor.livejournal.com]

[ivydoor.livejournal.com]

Well, that's just...weird. I ate my post but...not.

[suzvoy.livejournal.com]

*SMOOCH*

Your Dad'll kick it in the butt.

I hate cancer. We just found out that fasnell's Dad has it too - argh! *pokes cancer in the eye*

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thanks. :)

[katesutton.livejournal.com]

*hugs you* I'm so sorry to hear that. It's rough, even if you know he's got a great chance at beating it. And I say spam away! I think we all know how fandom can be a relief from RL stress.

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :) *spams*

[joyfulfeather.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry. :( Yay for curable, but that he has to go through it at all sucks completely.

Spam away! LJ is a great stress reliever. :D And you definitely need the escapist fun right now!

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Yeah, it just kinda sucks. But they did catch it early, so that's good.

And I really do need escapist fun at the moment...

[sensiblecat.livejournal.com]

First, very sorry to hear about your father. I do hope they have caught it early and it will be treatable. It need not be unrelieved bad news.

I use my LJ exactly as you do - I hardly mention RL in it, but I have been so emotionally bound up in my stories from time to time that I've had to deal with wave after wave of it. I think we identify with fan characters because they touch something very deep within us. I have read books (His Dark Materials, for example) which literally catalyzed a complete turnaround in my values and beliefs. I think often these things set off a reaction with us because something is bubbling away under the surface.

Someone a while back did a Myers-Briggs survey on t&c and found all Ten/Rose shippers had a similar profile - basically they are idealists. Fascinating stuff.

D'you know, I am exactly the same about Doomsday. It's classic grieving stuff - it's nearly a year ago and it's flooding back. And it hurts. I can genuinely say I've never been so affected by a piece of TV drama before. I know I'm not alone. And I work with youngish kids (about 7-9) and they all remembered the emotion of Doomsday. I think if the Doctor is seen to break down too much it's a bit like coming home to find your parents are divorcing and your mum's crying again. I thought, for that reason, the Runaway Bride was a very close-to-the-edge piece of telly, esp. for Xmas day.

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

First, very sorry to hear about your father. I do hope they have caught it early and it will be treatable. It need not be unrelieved bad news.

Thanks. Yeah, it looks like it'll be good and it was caught early.

I use my LJ exactly as you do - I hardly mention RL in it, but I have been so emotionally bound up in my stories from time to time that I've had to deal with wave after wave of it. I think we identify with fan characters because they touch something very deep within us. I have read books (His Dark Materials, for example) which literally catalyzed a complete turnaround in my values and beliefs. I think often these things set off a reaction with us because something is bubbling away under the surface.

It is nice to have an outlet to channel things into at times, isn't it?

Someone a while back did a Myers-Briggs survey on t&c and found all Ten/Rose shippers had a similar profile - basically they are idealists. Fascinating stuff.

Awwww.

D'you know, I am exactly the same about Doomsday. It's classic grieving stuff - it's nearly a year ago and it's flooding back. And it hurts. I can genuinely say I've never been so affected by a piece of TV drama before. I know I'm not alone.

No, me either! I mean, like EVER. It actually *hurt* to look at that behind-the-scenes stuff, which is just frickin' weird.

And I work with youngish kids (about 7-9) and they all remembered the emotion of Doomsday. I think if the Doctor is seen to break down too much it's a bit like coming home to find your parents are divorcing and your mum's crying again. I thought, for that reason, the Runaway Bride was a very close-to-the-edge piece of telly, esp. for Xmas day.

I hate to think of what the kiddies thought of it. I think if I had a kid under a certain age, I'd be tempted to not let them watch and just tell them that Rose went off to play somewhere for a while. :D

[beck-liz.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. I know that's scary, even though it is the treatable kind.

I think people should use their journals however they want. If you want to use yours to have fun and talk about Doctor Who all the time, that's totally up to you. People don't have to read it if they don't want to. And it's not like I mind you posting about Doctor Who all the time. ;-)

Okay, a year later and you'd think I'd be able to watch behind-the-scenes stuff for Doomsday, wouldn't you?

I can't even listen to the music all the way through; every time my CD hits that track I change it to something else.

nd then as BP's filming her crying alone scene, DT's sitting in the car to keep warm, but looking very glum as he watches. WAH! And then they started hugging on each other after it was done.

Wah. Is that on the S2 DVDs? I haven't even looked at them, "Doomsday" messed me up so bad.

And I guess DT's reaction was a bit of shock. Yes, DT. You and BP have managed to traumatize small children. And not so small children.

This amuses me, too. I think it makes sense, though. Scary stuff is one thing; I mean, it happens and then it's over. But stuff that happens to two characters you love and it's permanent? Yeah. I'm with the kids.

[misssara11.livejournal.com]

I can't even listen to the music all the way through; every time my CD hits that track I change it to something else.

You too?!? I make it to the first "Ooo" and have to skip. Everytime I say, "This is it. I'm going to listen because it is great music." And everytime I tear up.

[fiona-conn.livejournal.com]

*Hug tightly*

Oh, Michelle, I'm so sorry to hear about that. I'll be keeping you and your dad in my thoughts and prayers.

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :)

[misssara11.livejournal.com]

*hugs and cookies*

It's your LJ, you can do with it as you please. It's your place to be selfish.

The video diaries are great. Just for the amount of time he spends talking about something then somehow works it back to Billie. *pets him, more than what's appropriate* I love that he broke his action figure immediately. And all the hugs on her last day...*sniffs a lot*

Somehow I get the feeling that this year's diaries aren't going to be as Tiggerish. I've watched more television at this point in my life than most people in their entire lives and the DT/BP chemistry is just so unique and wonderful.

What do you bet he called Billie after that interview to tell her. And they giggled (as they do) and talked about nothing and were just cute. I miss them together. And now I'm babbling in your LJ about Doctor Who.

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

*hugs and cookies*

Thanks. :)

The video diaries are great. Just for the amount of time he spends talking about something then somehow works it back to Billie.

Yeah, that was really cute how he kept talking about her. I did fast forward a bunch, but whenever I'd stop to watch him babble, it was, "oh, and Billie blah blah blah..." You really got the impression they became great friends through this.

*pets him, more than what's appropriate* I love that he broke his action figure immediately.

The action figure thing was funny. :D

And all the hugs on her last day...*sniffs a lot*

Yeah. *sniffs*

Somehow I get the feeling that this year's diaries aren't going to be as Tiggerish. I've watched more television at this point in my life than most people in their entire lives and the DT/BP chemistry is just so unique and wonderful.

It really is.

What do you bet he called Billie after that interview to tell her. And they giggled (as they do) and talked about nothing and were just cute. I miss them together.

I saw some photos from the filming of S3, and I guess BP came to hang out with DT, which is just...nice.

And now I'm babbling in your LJ about Doctor Who.

I have the feeling my journal is Whobabble Central. :D

[shaela]

I’m so sorry, Michelle. I’ve been there; I know how hard it is, even when the doctors say that the odds are in your favor. If it’s all right with you, I’ll keep you and your family in my prayers.

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :)

[butterfly.livejournal.com]

Sorry about your dad. Nothing anyone can say to make it better, but I want to let you know that I'll be thinking about you and wishing for all the best.

*hugs*

And I love all your DW posts.

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Thanks. *hugs you*

[spacefiend.livejournal.com]

*sends you many, many hugs* I'm so sorry about your dad. I hope everything comes out right.

Hey, babble about DW as much as you want! Your posts have made me at least intrigued enough about the new season to watch when it hits SciFi. And the MST3K posts are just hysterical.

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :)

And glad I've made you want to watch!

[darksylvia.livejournal.com]

Eep! Cancer is a scary word. I'd be upset, too.

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Even though I'm pretty sure things will be fine, still.

[misssimm.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I'm completely unable to watch behind the scenes stuff, I don't really for most shows but I get the feeling the Doomsday one would break me!

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

This was the first time I've watched a behind-the-scenes thing, and it was for the whole year, not just Doomsday. Of course, there were tears during the filming of the beach scene, as well as when they shot the last scene between the two of them - "the stuff of legends." And...you can tell they're about ready to break down.

WAH!

[jedi_of_urth]

Sorry to hear about your dad, you seem to be taking it better than I did when my mom found out she had it a few years back, you at least acknowledge it's going on. Good to hear it's a treatable kind, so I hope everything goes well.

And yeah, that portion of the video diaries is so telling of how upset people on the show can be about loosing Rose/BP. Watch the commentary at some point, DT and BP have lots to say on the subject of crying over Doomsday.

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear about your dad, you seem to be taking it better than I did when my mom found out she had it a few years back, you at least acknowledge it's going on. Good to hear it's a treatable kind, so I hope everything goes well.

Thanks. And yeah, it's treatable and my dad has a really good attitude about it. So, I'm really fairly positive.

And yeah, that portion of the video diaries is so telling of how upset people on the show can be about loosing Rose/BP. Watch the commentary at some point, DT and BP have lots to say on the subject of crying over Doomsday.

Yeah, I've heard about that commentary before. Awwww. Why did you leave, BP???

[pixiesio.livejournal.com]

{{{{{{{huggles}}}}}}} I'm sorry to hear about your dad. I'll keep good thoughts flowing.

And spam away, I know I always enjoy reading what you write. :D

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the hugs and thoughts. :)

*spams* :D

[wiliqueen.livejournal.com]

{{{{ hugs }}}} Great news that it's so treatable, but you are still TOTALLY allowed to be scared.

And we shall somehow survive the metaspam. ;-)

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

{{{{ hugs }}}} Great news that it's so treatable, but you are still TOTALLY allowed to be scared.

Thanks. :) Yeah, it's just...ugh.

And we shall somehow survive the metaspam. ;-)

I'm fairly certain I could meta that the Doctor's shirt is cotton, and therefore proof of his undying love for Rose. ;)

[boro-girl.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I remember last year when Mum was diagnosed they kept saying it was totally treatable and she was going to be fine... only it doesn't actually feel like that at the time.

Hang in there, babble away about anything and everything you need to.

You'll be fine. You all will.

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Yeah, there's that doubt, you know? It's a bit scary.

*hugs*

[goldy-dollar.livejournal.com]

I'll be thinking of you and your dad. *hugshugs*

As for using livejournal as escapism - I mean, that is the point, isn't it? It's probably why we're all here. As much as we might bitch about fandom, I don't think we'd do it if it wasn't addicting fun. :D

And I guess DT's reaction was a bit of shock. Yes, DT. You and BP have managed to traumatize small children. And not so small children.

Ha! The look on his face was so funny. I was just like: "Um, duh. Did you even WATCH that scene?"

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the hugs. :)

As much as we might bitch about fandom, I don't think we'd do it if it wasn't addicting fun. :D

Yeah, if fun wasn't part of it, why do it?

Ha! The look on his face was so funny. I was just like: "Um, duh. Did you even WATCH that scene?"

I really need to watch that Confidential. :D

[starbuck92.livejournal.com]

*snarffles* I'm sorry to hear about your dad, but I am glad that it's treatable. We just found out my dad has skin cancer three months ago. He's going in for surgery next week to try to get as much of it removed as possible, so I can sort of relate what you're going through.

Heh, I think it would be an understatement to say that I mostly use my lj for fandom stuff - I've been retagging some old entries and BSG is my most tagged entry - strange considering I've had my lj for 5 years yet have only been a BSG fan 2 1/2. :D I do make the occasional real world entry but only because this is a good place to let off steam, and I hope it continues to be for you as well. *snarffles again*

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

*snarffles* I'm sorry to hear about your dad, but I am glad that it's treatable. We just found out my dad has skin cancer three months ago. He's going in for surgery next week to try to get as much of it removed as possible, so I can sort of relate what you're going through.

:( *hugs*

Heh, I think it would be an understatement to say that I mostly use my lj for fandom stuff - I've been retagging some old entries and BSG is my most tagged entry - strange considering I've had my lj for 5 years yet have only been a BSG fan 2 1/2. :D I do make the occasional real world entry but only because this is a good place to let off steam, and I hope it continues to be for you as well. *snarffles again*

Tell me about it! I'm almost at the point where putting a tag of "Doctor Who" on my post seems redundant. :D

[tarzanic.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I hope treatment goes very smoothly and quickly for your dad. I'll be sending good thoughts.

Go forth and do whatever you wish on your LJ. Well, maybe not whatever. ;D If it makes you feel better, babble on. Such posts make me smile and hopefully you too.

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thanks. :)

And there probably will be much babbling. :D